When I sat down at the computer to write a blog about Father’s Day, I was at a loss. I tried writing about the DIY Dad and the Housewife Dad, the Gym Dad and Mr. Mom, but nothing seemed to work. As a blogging, stay-at-home dad, I felt that I had to write about Father’s Day – it’s practically in the job description. There had to be something interesting for me to say. With every word that I wrote about the state of fatherhood or how it feels to be a dad, though, I got lost in thought and ended up erasing the page.
Maybe I’m going through a rough patch of parenting lately, but I don’t feel like a great dad. And on Sunday my kids will give me cards that say “You’re the greatest dad ever,” or “The world’s best dad!” My heart will be filled with joy and I’ll hold my kids close and tell them how much I love them. There will also be a piece of my heart that tells me that I don’t deserve those sentiments.
Lately, my 7 year old son has faced challenges in school. Since I’m the one that helps him most of the time with his homework, I can’t help but feel responsible. My 5 year old daughter has been going through a testing phase for what feels like forever. An epic battle of wills is an everyday occurrence in my house. My baby boy loves me, but when he wants mom, there is nothing I can do to make him happy. How can I feel like I’m the greatest dad alive while these things are going on?
I know I’m not the only one that feels this way. When I discuss my challenges with other parents, they usually share similar struggles with me.
I love being a daddy and I’m so thankful that I’ve been blessed with three wonderful gifts. Raising these three gifts is a struggle at times, but I pray those struggle will help my children grow into strong adults. That is my goal and hope.
On Sunday, underneath the praises of my greatness as a father, will be written something else written. “I love you.” That will be what makes my day. I’ll have earned that.